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Because I hate shopping, I used to postpone each time till the next time – and usually next time never comes. Almost all my friends are shopaholic, they love to do shopping day and night – and that’s enough for a nightmare. There is always “sale” somewhere they’ll go to and call it a good bargain. Frankly, I tend not to understand what is so good about buying a new shoe every other week? Why not buy a shoe when you need a shoe – that’s it?!

I’ve tried every possible way to make shopping seem fun. I tried going to fancy places and below average ones, with my parents and sometimes with my friends. But all experiences were the same. Shopping is lame..

However because today I had to do some urgent shopping, and no one was free to join, so I had to do it for the first time alone. And although I didn’t buy most of the things on my list, I didn’t mourn it as usual. In fact, I enjoyed shopping for the first time.
That was the most interesting thing that happened today!

I didn’t have someone bugging me with advices to look here or there, I headed directly to my favourite shops, tried the things that caught my eyes – then left. And while walking, I spent quality time at a library for used books, whereas I always crave for doing so and can’t because the one with me always doesn’t want to take a look. I also searched for a gift I want to buy for a friend, while drinking my favourite sugar cane juice. And lastly, I ate my favourite shawerma sandwich, not because I was hungry, but because I wanted to – despite my hatred to the stares!

Actually eating in the street today was something that made me think about the changes that recently happened to me. Few months ago, I would have never did it.. I would have never ever liked [Ar] to eat a sandwich alone and in the street, even if I am dying out of hunger. To me, that’s simply the ultimate example of lonesome.

But today I enjoyed acting as an independent free woman. Shopping alone is fun. I even feel I am ready now to head the first fancy restaurant and eat dinner or lunch alone. I don’t mind anymore. I also believe I am ready to take my coming adventure.. alone..