Category Archives: Ramblings

Free?.. or not? 12

On my way home today, I passed by the mall to buy some stuff, when I found there was a concert taking place. Some youth were singing songs for “Tholathy adwa2 el masra7“. I didn’t realize how long it passed since I last attended any concerts till I felt the percussions getting into me.. Unconsciously, [...]

A thought on a book: Nineteen Eighty-Four 6

I am half way through reading George Orwell’s Nineteen Eighty-Four, and definitely enjoying every thing about it – for it is simply as good as my favorite Animal Farm. To me, Nineteen Eighty-Four is even a more pleasurable brain teaser to think about the Big Brother’s systematic planning to apply mind control -on either its [...]

He wrote, she didn’t acknowledge 2

It’s always sad, so sad, to read something you really really wished to hear for yourself, then discover its directed to someone else at the end..
You re-read the whole thing again and don’t really know whether it was the very you who allowed your mind to trick you by hiding all these signs , to [...]

On friendly books 5

It’s 3:00 a.m. and I am scared enough to get myself up from bed in the middle of the night to search for a good book, any good book I think I may enjoy once I finish reading “Born there, born here” for Mourid El Barghouti.
“I saw Ramallah” and then the sequel “Born there, born [...]

Pretty or not 5

You know those days when you wake up in the morning and need to quickly get dressed. You absolutely have no intention to look pretty, you actually don’t want to. So you grab an average dress, something that you keep for a crappy-mood-morning like this one. You don’t comb your hair, or don’t try to [...]

Very good reasons for joy (أسباب وجيهة للفرح) 3

Everything happened so fast since they told me few weeks ago about their wedding. I traveled and forgot, then returned to find out only a week left. I didn’t have enough time to prepare a dress or a lie to save me from going.
I have never felt comfortable with weddings..
But this time was [...]

Feelings 5

Feeling guilty for something you have not done, is one of the hardest feelings one can go through. Every night you would feel a persisting urge to cry without knowing why or what for.
You are left with a permanent feeling of not doing something as well as you think people are expecting from you, [...]

Allaho akbar.. 3

Sitting under my window as dawn is breaking, I hear the call for prayers wafting from the nearby mosque upon a summer breeze..
This may be one of the profound moments I miss, where ever I go.

Que sera, sera 4

- “But you said you deleted my emails”. (He said with a laugh)
- “That was a mistake wallahi!”.. (A moment of silence) “mm.. I was spring cleaning messages that I didn’t want to see again.. and yours -among others- were deleted accidentally. After I noticed, undo didn’t work.”
- “You deleted them?! not even archive?!” (astonished)
- [...]

Will our paths cross? 4

“Hope we get a chance to cross paths again some day too.”.. That’s how the email ended, and that’s how I started wondering again about the strangers I meet and the paths I walk by everyday..
To where the roads will lead me, whom will I meet again, and whom not?.. and who will remember me [...]

To my parents and grandfather 6

While the piano man was playing “Kalemat” today, I remembered the first time I heard this song. I was a kid watching Magda El Rumi’s live concert on TV – with my parents at night. My father is the one who taught me poetry. He taught me to love good words, and to seek the [...]

When a piano man plays.. 4

Today I asked the piano man to play me this musical piece by Omar Khairat. When I heard him playing it the other day, I suddenly found tears coming to my eyes. It is so special. It brings back nostalgia for memories I have not lived yet. It makes me miss my home, my room, [...]

Shopping alone, so what? 8

Because I hate shopping, I used to postpone each time till the next time – and usually next time never comes. Almost all my friends are shopaholic, they love to do shopping day and night – and that’s enough for a nightmare. There is always “sale” somewhere they’ll go to and call it a good [...]

Wishlist before I die 17

As I was checking the 3rd item on my 2010-resolutions today, I thought I should start writing down my 101-things-to-do-before-I-die list.. It’s always good to keep track of your dreams :-)
1. Plant Tulips in my balcony.
2. Build my own library.
3. Visit Iran (For the Islamic Architecture, and visit Omar El Khayyam’s grave).
4. Visit Spain (Al Andalus [...]

Hello stranger.. 5

I returned back home walking again tonight after work, and on my mind was still yesterday’s thoughts. I was thinking about the strangers I meet everyday in my life. How many of them will drop in the middle of the road, who will stay as strangers as they are, and who will continue with me [...]

At peace with the world 1

Tonight I left the bus and went back home walking; and throughout the way, my last visit to Beirut was on my mind. I remembered the first night I spent walking with strangers in the streets. It was my first time to travel somewhere new and spend it with people I barely know. I was [...]

An ode to my previous blogs 8

After years of writing in two separate blogs, Lasto Adri [Ar] and On my own [En], I finally decided to settle down and write in this one and only one blog. This decision was taken in a way to concentrate on writing dreams I have for quite sometime. Not that I promise to write more [...]